From the heart - Let it Go

Today I did something very important for myself just God and I. I've been thinking about it a lot this week and some very dear people pointed it out to me. I guard my heart and I'm live in such fear of being hurt by people as I have been hurt in the past. I'm so afraid of being hurt again, that I punish other people that love me and care about me. I've just lived in this fear. Today I let it all go. I got a balloon, a sharpie, my bible and journal and I went to a quiet place on our property, I wrote everyone's name on the balloon that had hurt me in the past, I prayed for them. And I let the balloon go, and when that balloon I let go of that hurt. There is no condemnation to him who is in Christ. I know God has his hand on me so I will not live life in fear. I'm going to love people and be more open to people. I'm letting Go and letting God. He has his hand over my life and my relationships. I hope you will let go of your past hurts, and find freedom in Christ.

I even had time to go christmas shopping

I even had time to go Christmas shopping for my favorite people, within an hour, I had Mrs. Carole, Mrs. Pam, My best friend Madison something and my mom. I just wanted to get in and out. Christmas shopping can be stressful it's hard to know what to get people. It was a tough decision on what to even get my best friend. I'm glad that is over. Now tommorow I'm going to help my best friend find something for her mom for her birthday. Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!

Some pictures of the before and after of the tree

Although I'm not so sure about all of this. I did the best I could, that tree is a beast to put together, Do you understand this? I still need to put a bow or something at the top of it.

the A, B, C, Christmas Tree

My mom is in Birmingham visiting my brother and sister in law and niece and nephew. As you may know I have been sick at home all week with a sinus infection, so I've been taking it easy. My mom has called 50 times worried about a christmas tree she wants a new one since our's is so complicated to put up, which I can't too much blame her, but I see nothing wrong with our tree, other than it's a pain to put up, but I decided today that I felt well enough to take up the challange, here it is, me starting it. I drug it from the garage to the backyard and brought it in piece by piece.

This is a picture of my pawpaw and mawmaw at there 50th wedding anniversary. I believe this was in 2002. Each mans life touches so many other lives and when he isn't around it leaves an aweful hole - from the angel clarence on it's a wonderful life.

Some Past Memories

This is a picture that was taken of my mawmaw and pawpaw and me, I believe it was taken around Easter time, I must have been about 12. I miss my pawpaw so much. Thank you pawpaw for being such a wonderful Christian Example for loving me so much and always defending me and being on myside. I will always love you and will never forget you and no one can ever take your place ever! Thank you God for sending this man to be my pawpaw. Oscar Clifford Dempsey November 18,1918 - November 6, 2003

Thanksgiving with the family.

This is me at Thanksgiving at my mawmaw"s. I really missed my pawpaw a lot this year, even though he's been with Jesus for 6 years now, It isn't any easier. I missed my family in California terribly, especially my Aunt Marlene. And on top of everything I was sick with a sinus infection. However I learned in everything to be Thankful. God has blessed me so much this year, with a new awesome church family and some awesome people in my life. No matter what your going through this year Remember God is faithful and will bring you through.

Happy Thanksgiving!

At Thanksgiving time, I think of how much God has blessed me this whole year and I have so much to be Thankful for! Here's a few people and things I'm thankful for, Jesus dying on the cross for me,Mrs. Carole, Mrs. Pam, Kellie, Kim T., Madison, Maryanne. My wonderful church family at St. Mark United Methodist. My job, My Freedom, Aunt Marlene, My wonderful brother John.My pawpaw who has now gone to be with the Lord My health and so much more. Share with me what your thankful for this Thanksgiving. I hope you all have a safe and Happy holiday.